This year is already flying! My goals for the year are:
1: Do what I want or need to do to make myself happy
With this I am taking days for myself, I even dyed my hair red and it looks great. Applying to jobs that I’d rather be at, like being a teacher assistant for a preschool; btw the kids there are adorable. I’m pushing myself with beading when my body allows it as well as making business cards for it. Also I will be taking a class at my Alum College, APU. Yay for learning!
2: Pay off my debt
This started off with H and R block taxes (I hate them so much) and the IRS. And my boyfriend’s debt is almost gone too. I may or may not apply for another deferment for my student loans, but we shall see.
3: Heal my body and soul
Between my conventional doctors and my new traditional healers, I’m hoping to find myself in a better mental state.
4: Write more letters or post cards
That and write more today bits here!
Today I am recovering from a cold. Been working non stop and today is .y first day off that I don’t have to leave the house. I’ve been coughing and sneezing and hard of hearing due to the congestion. So have a great Tuesday Everyone!
My mind keeps jumping from topic to topic and my emotions are the same. This year has been a rollercoaster to say the least. From new meds and a new job to taking an out of state trip with my boyfriend…my brain feels like goop.
I’m happier with myself, because I’ve been taking care of myself mentally and physically. Though the last two months I’ve been terrible with the gym, but oh well. Taking depression meds has helped bring me up to breathe and the RA meds are helping my aching joints. The worst thing though is that I’m not satisfied with myself. I want to be happy without the meds and have a job in which I’m happy with. Sure my current job is giving me manager experience, but I’m being run down already with it. I’ll get through this funk with work…at least my coworkers appreciate me.
The last thing on my mind for this year is children. I so want to be a mother. I’m envious of others who are pregnant or just popping them out (my cousin with her cute little twins). My maternal clock is kicking my behind.
New years is just around the corner. Have a good one! And thank you to everyone for this first year up as Waterbug Blog!
Sincey boyfriend and I had our week long trip to Washington state, life has been a blur. Between it finally snowing, doctor visits and long hours at work I haven’t had the will nor energy to really write.
The dark here in Alaska is sometimes unreal. At 5pm it looks to be closer to midnight, especially if it hasn’t snowed. The worst part of the darkness is when you don’t or can’t take the time to get outside or be active. With my depression I have to take at least 1000mg of vitamin D supplements daily to help my body manage through winter or tan (I’d rather not though). On days off I try to take walks in my neighborhood. Winter here is best when it’s snowing! The darkness isn’t as bad and snowmen are possible.
At work I’ve taken on more and only need one technical training night to know how to close the store. Working overtime and proving myself has been stressful, but I am becoming more comfortable in the position. It also helps that I’ll get a nice raise and it’ll look good on my resume. Though I’ve been taking my days off and not staying so late in order to keep my sanity.
My sanity may have to hold off a bit longer, due to Thanksgiving in a few days followed by Black Friday, Christmas, and News Years right after. This year I happily have Thanksgiving off with my boyfriend and I spending it with my Cousin and his family.
My beading is coming along too. I’ve been trying new styles and started selling earrings at my colleges bookstore (I’ve sold one so far). It’s exciting.
Well I hope you all have a great night and Happy Thanksgiving!
The last three weeks have turned into a blur. I worked my butt off at work doing overtime, got a small chest cold, took a week long vacation in Washington [state] with my boyfriend, and now back home with a lingering cold. I’ve had my blog in the back of my head, but I was distracted and unfocused. But despite being sick and winter looming here in Alaska [it snowed while we were out of state] both my boyfriend and I are doing well. I even set up a corner for my beading with a table I found at Goodwill last night!
The vacation was much needed, though my boyfriend thought he’d be bored all week. In the end he had a great time and clicked with my family [minus my sister, but that’s a story by itself]. He even danced with my aunt Wanda who doesn’t dance. It was a lovely visit. Though I wish more of my family members could have stopped by to say hi. I carved several pumpkins and roasted the seeds next to a warm fire pit outside. The one person who I really wanted to see ended up being too busy and I was getting sick again , so we’ll have to try again next time.
My corner of peace,
Next to the window and in front of the fire,
Beads aligned with needles near by,
Every color imaginable plus more.
Fresh needles and thread and a place for finished earrings,
My spot draws me in and I am happy to bead again.
I’m so excited to have my corner! I’ve been wanting to create one for awhile now. As well as beading, I am wanting to write more letters, so I have the supplies in the corner as well. Life is well.
Today is in fact my 24th summer on planet Earth! I usually work on my birthday, because well why not. But I decided that I needed a break and took it off. I slept in, had a nice morning with my boyfriend, and spent the afternoon/evening with my cousin and his family. Since my cousins granddaughter, who is 7, was around rather than play Cards Against Humanity we opted for the child friendly Apples to Apples. I’m exhausted now; I’ve come down with a persistent cold.
I’m gonna rest and relax now. Have a safe 4th of July (if celebrating) or if working (like myself) enjoy the time and a half 😄😎
“People who love to eat are always the best people,” -Julia Child
I love food. Growing up I tried all sorts of odd dishes, well at least to children and that of others who didn’t grow up in a Native Alaskan or Native American household. From seal oil to muktuk (frozen whale skin and blubber) which is very good, but chewy. But I was also weird in that I wasn’t a very picky eater, though I didn’t care much for spicy food, and I loved ‘weird’ food like purple ketchup and mixed most of my food. Cooking was also fun and I enjoyed helping when allowed. Back then I also had a weight issues and part of it stemmed from eating too much bad food which gave me a complex. This complex wasn’t bad, I knew I was gaining weight because I was eating too much. This lead me not to eating disorders, but to watch what I ate. I slowly replaced milk, juices, and soda for water, less red meat, reduced sugar intake overall, and tried to stay away from fast food when possible. Now it wasn’t easy since most of my family, along with extended family, eat a lot and I was surrounded by sweets and soda, but I think I’ve come out of it a whole lot better than most children who deal with obesity that stems from a family’s bad eating habits.
I would push and still push my family and friends to choose better options, but I don’t force them to do anything. I know what’s good for myself and can only give advice on ideas on better eating habits. At this point in my life I have taken red meats, most other meats ( though I wouldn’t pass up fresh game animals or traditional foods), most dairy, sweets, and most alcoholic beverages. I’ve done so by figuring out what my body processes badly (most cow dairy and all red meats) and items I needed to cut back on (alcohol and sweets). Overall I am happy and feeling better about what I eat, but there are times where I do indulge which everyone should do now and again if wanted. My boyfriend, glass, has helped me with my eating journey and is carving his ow , both in our own ways. I prefer cooking homemade meals from scratch and with random ingredients on our shelves. The best part is that he enjoys 9/10 meals I make; there has only been one or two meals off the top of my head he hasn’t liked. Glass has also bragged about my cooking to his online friends which makes me just a little happy (ok it makes me feel awesome!). From homemade pizza, curry as spicy as I can stand plus a little extra, breads, awesome pasta sauce kicked up a notch with veggies and spices, I cook my hearts content. Maybe paired with some wine 😉 but always with love. 💖 I’ve even gotten glass to enjoy his veggies, which makes me feel like on top of the world.
If anyone would like to swap recipes that would be kick ass! Just comment or message me! Share ideas and enjoy a meal!
Have a great night! Now go enjoy your favorite food and eat it!
“Enjoy the little things.”
So a lot has been going on and my body finally decided to stick it to me. It started with a sore throat and escalated to a fever with a persistent cough. This I gave to my loving boyfriend, glass, who I am now taking care of.
In lou of my sickness and lack of work, I’ve been working on my beading. I’ve been asking my coworkers their favorite colors and creating earrings I hope they will love. The funny thing is that hey don’t know that I’m making them earrings. One of them asked why I needed their favorite colors and I laughed, saying,”You’ll find out soon.” It has been awhile since I’ve felt any inspiration to create earrings and it’s nice having it back. Currently I’ve made them for three co-workers and working on a forth. I hope to start expanding my knowledge this year and try other looks, rather than keeping to the same style.
I learned how to make earrings back in highschool from my older cousin Jess. My uncle, rip uncle Willy, was a master at making jewelry when he was young and healthy! He thankfully passed down some of his trade to the younger generations before he was forced to stop do to health.
Beading can be very therapeutic. I lose myself once I figure out the pattern. The pattern can either be easy or tough, because if I’m relaxed it comes easier than if I am stressed or overthinking. Some days I can create several pieces while others I barely crank out one to a set. The other day I kept having string issues and ended up giving up, because I knew if I kept it up I would hate my work or never accomplish the end goal: create something I love.
If anyone who is reading would like a pair, I sell them. Just message me and we can work out the details! Also if you’d like to learn how to bead I can show you!
Welp my phone is dying! 😱 And I’m still not feeling 100%, so I’m gonna lay down for the night.