My mind keeps jumping from topic to topic and my emotions are the same. This year has been a rollercoaster to say the least. From new meds and a new job to taking an out of state trip with my boyfriend…my brain feels like goop.

I’m happier with myself, because I’ve been taking care of myself mentally and physically. Though the last two months I’ve been terrible with the gym, but oh well. Taking depression meds has helped bring me up to breathe and the RA meds are helping my aching joints. The worst thing though is that I’m not satisfied with myself. I want to be happy without the meds and have a job in which I’m happy with. Sure my current job is giving me manager experience, but I’m being run down already with it. I’ll get through this funk with work…at least my coworkers appreciate me.

The last thing on my mind for this year is children. I so want to be a mother. I’m envious of others who are pregnant or just popping them out (my cousin with her cute little twins). My maternal clock is kicking my behind.

New years is just around the corner. Have a good one! And thank you to everyone for this first year up as Waterbug Blog!



One thought on “2017

  1. It’s always a good feeling being in a good place with your mental health. Its great that you have this amazing goal for the future. I don’t have kids just lots of nieces and nephews. It is amazing seeing them grow into their own human beings. Good luck in your 2018.


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