My mind keeps jumping from topic to topic and my emotions are the same. This year has been a rollercoaster to say the least. From new meds and a new job to taking an out of state trip with my boyfriend…my brain feels like goop.
I’m happier with myself, because I’ve been taking care of myself mentally and physically. Though the last two months I’ve been terrible with the gym, but oh well. Taking depression meds has helped bring me up to breathe and the RA meds are helping my aching joints. The worst thing though is that I’m not satisfied with myself. I want to be happy without the meds and have a job in which I’m happy with. Sure my current job is giving me manager experience, but I’m being run down already with it. I’ll get through this funk with work…at least my coworkers appreciate me.
The last thing on my mind for this year is children. I so want to be a mother. I’m envious of others who are pregnant or just popping them out (my cousin with her cute little twins). My maternal clock is kicking my behind.
New years is just around the corner. Have a good one! And thank you to everyone for this first year up as Waterbug Blog!
Here is what I posted to my Facebook account. I’ve been mulling over this topic since it was brought to my attention.
Reading Oil and Water by Mei Mei Evans, a professor at APU. Going back to the Valdez Oil Spill of ‘ 89.. I’ve learned a lot about clean up operations and prevention from my time with the PWSRCAC organization and now finally getting to read this still blows my mind. So much destruction of our oceans in the last 27 years.
My cousin, Adrienne Blatchford, is one of my voices in response to the drilling in the Arctic. I don’t voice my opinions very often, but here I must. We’ve seen what oil can do; not only to the environment and other species, but to humans as well. Birds and mammals died, fishing and eating fish is a fight and tug at my heart and soul because I know what’s in the water (chemically and fish counts), humans lose their way of life and some spiral downward in depression/suicide/drucgs and alcohol due to terrible oul spills like Valdez. It makes me angry to read articles about the administration wanting to open it up and cut national parks and sanctuaries.
Everyone, I don’t say this, because I keep it to myself, but please pray to whatever god/diety/spirit and ask that the plan for drilling the Arctic is shot down. The Dakota access pipeline and the Clean Water Warriors are needed to help this fight. Stay informed and I ask you to read Oil and Water as well as The Spill.
For more information on oil spills and prevention:
Please read up. I can’t stop shaking my head.