Chronic Illness: Part 1

Quote: “And here you are living despite it all.” ~Rupi Kaur

This week’s theme is chronic illness. This one is a bit tough for me to write out, but not because it hurts to talk about my illnesses. I have several issues that run together like trickling streams coming together to form a river that leads to the lake supporting my life. If I had to start anywhere I guess it would be with my younger sister, let’s call her Ash.

Ash was diagnosed with Chiari malformation at around age 10. Chiari is a hereditary and chronic illness that ranges from not so bad to very severe. Headaches, backaches, dizziness, fatigue, insomnia, numbness in parts of the body range in severity as well. Anyways, Ash had some severe symptoms and ended up having surgery the following year to help relieve pressure on her spine.  After my sister went through her ordeal, my doctors had me tested via MRI and CAT scans. It was found that I didn’t have it as severe and suffered in different ways. After a few years of learning more about Chiari and talking with my neurological doctor, we decided to forgo surgery for the time being. A few years later I was hit with a new health crisis; my left eye was losing vision and no one knows why.

My left eye was a mystery and I became a guinea pig of sorts on what should be done concerning medication. What I mean is other than knowing the issues going on, the specialists couldn’t, and they never have, pin-pointed on what caused my eventual surgical removal of my left eye. For a decade my left eye was constantly inflamed and the pain that would shoot through my head was unbearable most days. Through the pain and medication, I gained weight that made me depressed that was never dealt with till I entered high school. In order to help me through the tough times, rather than turn to drugs or other harmful activities, I turned to sports. During my four years of high school I played on the water-polo and wrestling teams. I only played water-polo for two years due to personal conflicts with the coaches, I flourished and became more extroverted during wrestling. I felt at home on the matt, even on days that I wasn’t doing so hot.

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Valentine’s Day + Starbucks = Happiness


Since last Monday was Valentine’s Day and I work at Starbucks, I made the above Strawberry with Lemon icing and paired it with the Komodo Dragon dark roast from Starbucks. It was the perfection combination of sweet and bitter, like glassofwater and I, after a homemade dinner for two. We gave our cats, Thunderbutt and Hobbitsis, special treats and extra love as well. That’s it for my V-day recap. I hope everyone had a great day as well.

From this blog post forward I will be giving each one a special theme and quote of the day. If there is anything anyone reading my posts would like to read about or know more about from my perspective please feel free to shoot me a question. For tonight though I;m gonna sign off early. I’m exhausted from work and stress as well as needing to get up early on a day I normally have off.

Peace Love Happiness


The Beginning

Many people have goals they wish to accomplish, but they get side-tracked or their passion dies off. I’m through with letting life or myself, get in the way of my happiness. Thanks to my wonderful and supportive boyfriend, glassofwater, I am jumping onboard the blog express to finally start doing what I want to do: share my passions and knowledge with everyone and remind myself what I am capable of doing.

My goal is to upload a new post weekly, I’ll start with Mondays for now till my schedule changes within the next couple weeks.

It’s snowing this morning; not terribly excited since I have to drive to work in about an hour. People here in Alaska have been driving in the snow as if they had never seen it before. Till I have to get ready for work, I’ll just sit here and type as I sip my Casi Cielo blend coffee with a splash of almond syrup.

The snow is really coming down. I just hope I can make it out of my neighborhood and safely get to work. I don’t have the funds to get a cab. I love Alaska’s winters, just not when I work across town with bad roads and terrible drivers who think that because they have snow tires and four-wheel drive they can go faster and not get into wrecks.

Either way wish me luck!